2005, 20 paintings on blotter paper
In the winter of 2004 I started this series of twelve paintings, Towards
the End , in an unsettled, confused state, searching for new paths
of the soul. Though I had always worked on paper, until then I had
used either handmade paper (which I make myself at Dobbin Mills in
Brooklyn) or Japanese paper: papers that are remarkable for their
tactility and beauty. But this time, I wanted to challenge myself
and chose instead a humble material: the large blotter papers normally
used in the etching room.
The series follow a trajectory, from color to color and emotion to
emotion, inspired by Expressionism (Arshyle Gorky, Lee Miller) and
poets such as Baudelaire and Rimbaud, who wrote about colors’
In the beginning is a wordless, black abyss; solitude of the beginnings
maybe, surrounded by a field of red-hot rage that claws, tears, screams
and breaks. Tendrils of words are thrown over the hole. The intensity
of feeling overflows like a cup full of blood; I plunge willfully
into the night and find it, surprisingly, illuminated. The hole is
still there - but has changed in nature because I am guided by a trail
of stars, a configuration of milky ways that organize the darkness.
Then I have to go back to red, orange, black and white to depict the
inner battles and conflicts. The space is streaked with crossed swords,
shiny with armors, as in a battle painted by Paolo Ucello. Again comes
peacefulness, a sea of emerald and blues, as if I were held in the
embrace of a dreamt mother with necklaces of foam. From there I soar
into a vertical Syrian pink, joy, jubilation, I climb ladders and
trapezes. Everything is possible. Red and black come back but under
other guises, armed by architecture and pervaded by the whites and
grays of a silent peace where yesterdays are only pale shadows. I
dance in orange circles like a bee, a butterfly in an open field.
I soar in red columns of ambition and pride. And finally I surrender
and let life guide me, show me open paths, clearings of pure white
strewn with skeins of blue and red, infinite perspectives.